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ihad my first ONS last night.      last night was very fun.


yesterdat was 'eh'  .  i got a pt on brd.  someone named 'cotolion'  not exact spelling but i cant remember <_<

anyway.   setup was like.  drk(cotolion) brd(me) blm. pld.   and 2 random DDs.     the blm was 63. and cot was 64.  when i got in everyone else was 64 as well.     im 66@10k    .   he said that pld was otw.  hes like.  20k to 66.   there was also a 66rdm lfp .  i was confused why they kept the blm when there was no reason to.    and WHY did you guys get a brd that higher than you ???

the party gonna do the damage of 64's and get exp of 66.  and in 10k would be 67.   it would have been shit ..


and some fucking retard.  one of those random DDs. asked what the problem was w/ imps at 67.


i remember being embarrased about my 67monks damage and i had BB.  SH+1 .  rings and shit.     theres no way in hell they could have done the same damage   .  i believe it was a thf that said it.


so yeah <_<   my last day of ffxi for awhile and some crap ass party ruin it for me.   i logged off.  watched iron chef.   kim msn'd me.

im so bummed out about kim w/yassin .   the 30th was a thursday.  i was at my dads  (very happy to be home again btw).   the event started @ 6pm.  and which is kinda stupid because normally we start at 8 and im not THAT late.    we had 2 pop sets.  by the time i came home and logged on the first was dead and we waiting for ??? to pop up again.

kirin is only 'hnm'  that i've ever really fought. every single kirin im always in tank party.  once i went as monk it its just SO USELESS to go as mnk.   so myself all  'anti-lvling rdm' and my 1 enf. merit go in the tank party.   it me .  rdm/sofrid . whm/ita .  pld/ramus and dillon(yaydillonsback). and nin/dmk (although during fight we had to switch out people <_<).

i'd like to think that because kirin is all i know it would be the one im best at  <_<    so.  i do my part np.  i was never interupted in rl. ramus and dillon did great job w/pld/nin.  we did it with 2 smns.   which idk if that means we have more skill by doing it with less.  it not skill really it just holding on longer iguess  =/  ayl and kinky were good smns ^^   

so..  ever since i met kaio/stridan i've really really wanted a shura togi and byakko shorts.  i played on his char and i knew i wanted it ^^   .   that why when CoVs said that we gonna do sky i was very excited.  so.  all throughout my senior year.   it really was mostly in november-april.  i farmed for atleast 40 hours a week in sky.  do like.  the LS farming for 4 hours.  2x a week.   and then on weekends i'd go wake up and log on.   1/2 LS in sky so they tell me to come up i'd be on in sky from 9am >>> 4am.   so minimum i was there was 8 hours.  one week was alot.  ithink 60 hours.

i farmed SO MUCH.   we got somany pops and everything.   mostly the people that i remember being there was cac flanx hero ita kim ell ark. myself.  and the GS.  other people did show up but we were there most of the time.  the weekends was extra.  for making up for the slack that all the other members .

so..  in march.  i was named LS member of month.  and that im next in line for shura togi and byakko shorts.   so .  my goal was just shoved right in my face and said 'YOU GETTING IT SOON'   .   hero told me this as i was meriting on monk getting h2h merits and shit. i told him i poor and cant afford it.  which.  i dont need ALL of it paid for me.  i had like 300k at the time and i think then it was 1.2m for cursed togi.  hero said 'np he'll help me out'  im just estatic.  all that work i did for past 5 months on continually having to farm and shit. finally being paid off.

so next few days im all excited thinking its gonna happen.  i dont get shit for a long time . 

thursday, may 03, 2007  i get my byakko shorts at same time cac do.  we were both very happy that day.   ithink we were on phone for like an hour.  "OMG YAY FINALLY !! yay lol lol yay lol."  except talking and not in text <_<  i stayed up ALL night that night.  it was cool because my mom wasnt home and HS was ending for me in about 2 weeks.  i stayed awake till .  4.  (test driving mah new byakko haidate)took 2 hour nap.  showed and went to school and /sleep.

now.  every year for past 4 years i've gone to NY to work and get monies for the summer.  i told LS maybe 2 weeks before i left. some people already knew though.  after HS ended i slacked off some.  but not entirely my fault.  LS events were moved from monday and wednesday and thursday to tuesday and thursday.  and started at 7 instead of 8:30.   so.  IF i showed up to any event it was very very very late.  im not going to ditch my father to play a video game.

if i could play i was there.  i never ditched events to do something else in game.   it was always RL > ffxi.  and i been like that since my LS switched over from the /point system to the actually points system.

basically if you at an event you get 1 point.  if you get something its -5 points.  i like it and dont like it.  i am alittle confused on how my old 'points' from all that work i did in november-april got carried over.  and i dont think it did. .   i do know that BEFORE i left for NY.  i was still #1 for shura togi.   i got genbu hat as free lot.  because NO ONE WANTED IT.   tyler would play as my char from time to time but i told him not to lot on anything.  and i didnt get anything.  someone said i got monk gloves.  but i got mine while my monk was 50ish and doku JUST stoped playing as much.   all i got that I KNOW was not free lot was

mnk feet (which i got when no one else that was in needed)
byakko shorts
ohat ( but everyone has that and it shouldnt really count since cac decided to do it @ 3pm on a saturday)

but theres other shit too.

genbu hat.  everyone that was there all wanted SHURA HAT.   i was handed genbu because no one wanted it

suzy feet.  ok.  so the only people that this go to from what i understand it mnks and rngs.   the night that this happen.  i did not play.  but i have 3 diff. stories.  and 2 of them more closely match than the 3rd. 

my RL friend tyler who was playing said ' it drop.  and no one wanted it and i said i'll take it if no one want it' and he got it.

itachi said ' it drop.  jork got the first.  no rng that there really wanted it .  and only other monk there was fireballx .  but he zzz like always.  tyler said he'd take it if NO ONE else wanted it.  so i got it'

hero said 'it drop .  tyler kept saying that he'd take it if no one wanted it.  there not enough time to see who wanted it so it went to cletis'

tyler called me as soon as he got it.  AS SOON AS HE CALLED I LOGED ON .  i told hero (on tylers char)  that i did not want that.  that he should give it to someone else.  i DO forget what he said that night but i asked him a few nights later on .  he said that it still in high demand.
 
but if it such in high demand why do 2x people say that NO ONE wanted it ?  i was so confused. i told hero that no matter WHO is on my char.  dont give them ANYTHING unless its shura togi.   if i keep getting gear that no one wants and -5 points for that i will never get it.

so now im in this pickle.  i asked hero a few days after i got back if i was still in line for shura togi.  he said no.  donjon next because of the points.  

i was so sad.  it was just.  retarded sadness.   now.  this really hard to make my point without saying bad shit about donjon.   and it sucks cause hes a really nice dude and there really shouldnt be anything said.

but .   the promise that was made to me was broken.  the 2 things i wanted most in ffxi.  my byakko shorts.  and shura togi.  i got 1.  but the 2nd was ripped away.  imean one of the reasons i was so happy to be in CoVs was because i did so much and i was gonna be rewarded with the first CoVs shura togi.

but inside of the 5 weeks that i was gone.   i was bumped down.  and i dont know by how much. .   going alllllllll the way back up to top.  seeing the kirin fight.   i came in.   logged on.   pole dropped before.  as i understand.   pole is useless for mages but kickass for monks.  so poles go to monks.   SGG got the pole.  why not monk ?    iwas so confused again.  donjon has pleanty of points.  but if he gets pole then he wouldnt get togi next and i would (maybe)  .  but then jork and fireball were there too.  so im just.  confused..

we fight kirin.  idk how long it was but i never fucked up.  it was awesome.   as it getting down im talking to kim more.  and i tell her if  shura drop ima be so /emo if they dont let me lot.  so guess what drop ?




donjon name was only named called.

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it so crappy because im happy for don that he got togi now.   but im more mad at that it was taken away from me.  i would have been fine if i was told number 2.   but to be thinking your number 1 for 7 months and then 'OH JUST KIDDING YOUR 2nd OR 3rd OR 4th'   (i know thats not what happened but i was bumped down from 1st to 2nd or 3rd.

so..  i really really sad.   while i was in NY kim said she started doing shit w/yassin .   that he started talking to her out of the blue etc.etc..

but i've been back nearly 2 weeks.  so im all sad and /emo in my MH.  thinking the world was ending etc.etc.  its like 2am.  kim doing missions or something. 


basically she asked yassin to merit except me while i was still talking to her.  

i felt 100% replaced.  my LS just said 'no u'  and kim just wanted to go merit with yassin.   her only DECENT excuse is that he has bard lvled..  which.   when i /sea yass  he was lfp as thf...

its just total bullshit.  imean.  kim is like my best friend in ffxi.  and im not all 'omg we met online lets /sex'   isay it to her but its all in fun <_<  and she does the same thing back.  its just playing around.   but i do love her .  imean.  she never been mean to me .   just does her own thing.   but when i finally grow my balls out and start accepting that shes in AV.    she just thinks of him first instead of me.  oh thursday was a bad night..

but friday.  after that shit pt and kim msn'd me.  we went to farm for my brds AF  (ya idc about AF )  we got old gauntlets . while we were there drod showed up and we just got in same pt.  iglad drod back from his move and w/e problems he had.  but i did want to ask him if most of AV thinks im kaioshen still <_<  he went afk so istill dont know .   kim says that i have no idea what its like for everyone to think your GS or something.   i bet 100% of AV knows shes not.   but idk how many people still think im him.  1/2 me wants to go buy an account for him so he'll stop asking to play as me and make sure everyone knows that hes not me. and im not him.


  at 6pm or so kim's xbox starts to fuck up.  she put its freezer and i reminded her about thermal expansion and contraction ^^

so i go and and sleep over at a friends house.  but then we go somewhere else and i had my ONS. 

my one night stand  brbshower